Those Old Shoes...

I finally threw them, I threw them away... I don’t need them now, I went and walked under the sunshine.... so much of light cutting my veins under eye... but I walked further... I wanted to feel that heat on my skin, and that warm hug sun gave me! I walked for hours like I never had to come back, I left the dark... I finally left those pillows, under them I’d left my scary stories… I hid them all of my life... now no more!
I moved under the rain... I wanted to wash away all of my filthy truths, they belong to me no more... I got scared once... thought its blood all over me, but it was that colorful sky… I closed my eyes and felt drops over my eyes, I danced!
It was all new for me ‘cause I forgot this pure way of feeling happy, that open sky dropping water selflessly, that sound never was so pleasant, that smell of sand never grabbed my attention…, I was little scared by this new holy shine.. It was so positive for me to take but there was a shadow of hope which holds my both hands.
I’ve been all tired, all hopeless, and all sad, I’ve been the worst, I’ve been my own enemy but somehow I locked those doors. That smile I was smiling never was the same before… I did clean all dust, all drugs, all blood strains, and all black ink and did put colorful flowers there. They were beautiful but always been dreadful for me. The flowers I been with were all burnt… I didn’t even remember what real color they owe... they were just black for me as they told me this is how it is... they kept me under dark and I grew up there.
I fought with everything, everything that comes my way to come over madness... I took every beautiful thing I’ve ever had and packed them with me few hopes and ran away.
I left there all the fake love under those old shoes... I don’t need them now!!