Every time I gaze into the mirror, it reminds me of the terrible
blemish … years of pain… those gruesome eyes of humans… grievous memories… every
time I face that ugly face I die thousand times… everything around me become deaden,
all I can see is black… black shadow with soaked blood and then the shiniest flash
of light that cuts eyes in deep… all I hear is the scream of someone dying, devil
tears the soul from body and take it with him.
Standing on the crest of the mountain… the fire is all
around me… I scream for life, it reminds me of my childhood… blood dripping out
of each aperture of my body… I shout and cry but no one hears it, it feels like
a only human living on the scariest planet… the heat of fire is burning me in
the pale light of moon… the one who can hear me screaming is my shadow and that
too envy me.
I am running in the dark… I can see beasts around me… they
have no face, something black and revolting they hold… I don’t know the way
neither I know myself… all I do is run… I run for life, I run to kill the exasperation…
I run to find my lost self...believing my blind eyes I just run… out of the
blue I fall onto something… I get up and see it… I run again and scream to facilitate…
that smell of the burned dead body is sullying my spirit… I can’t forget that spitefulness…
I cry why I fell onto that… and I run… after eternity I run for no reason but I
just run…
I was trying to live serene… I was dreaming fairytales… but I
don’t know why I didn't feel the harmony… I cut myself deep and taste my blood…
smoke some weed… I smoke it more and drink it all and then I feel fine…. I start
walking and my walk was never-ending but I lay down somewhere on wet dark mud… one
specter come and start snatching me from legs… he tear my clothes and eat me…
eat my soul and my life and throw me into ocean… I feel myself deep into water…
all I can feel is the cold water, my deep warm breathe liquefy in water… and
slowly I become still and feel the vanished peace. I feel that eternity… I hear
it and see it-my lost peace.
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