That stone falls into the gutter, it’s funny when you feel sad that you have lost the thing you were playing all way… but she crossed the traffic and turned to left boulevard… walking under the damp sky, she gained back the memories of her dreams which constantly strokes out her heart. ‘A girl in white dress lying on white bed in white room…sleeping with pleasant face; a guy came slowly to her when she was deeply inhaling.. he jumped on her.. She screamed terribly like she never sensed anything like this in life.. She fought for life but she felt herself dying when he tore her down and humped her like animal.. sheet turned red between her legs.. he banged her and her face.. he left after making love with dead lady. They both appeared in that room again after they were lifeless; she realized they were dead… She screamed and felt appalled and found herself on the same bed with both of them standing in front of her.. She tremble and open her eyes’.. it was nothing more than delusion that left her in sweat..
This was not the only one that horrified her but she was suffering daily from those mind-numbing sensations, dreams and images. She came back to senses when she heard a loud horn from backside and she realizes she was in middle of the road. She gives him side and move again.
She don’t really know what she feel about all the sensations but she just never wanted to be scared of anything.. time passes and after many phrases of life she starting feeling alone.. She was whole lot into her novels and normal routine which she never enjoyed in life but it doesn’t seems to bother her now. She daily saw dreams, felt sensations, discussed it with few people but never did anything for salvage.
Time passed the same way for long and she started thinking that she has never thought enough of what she is doing in life… leaving people aside whom she always loved more than her, though it’s unethical for her to do that, and she know it was wrong but she did nothing for it and it didn’t even bothered her. Her typical daily routine wasn’t normal but it always does sound normal to her.
She realized a distance she'd made between her and her loved ones. She cried in pain but never consciously realized how much damage has been done. It wasn’t only about dreaming tragic but facing it subconsciously that she was becoming numb and insane day after day. That long stare on wall and finding nothing and behaving normal wasn’t normal enough to never come under people’s observation.
She slowly tried to cope up with the moving world. Somewhere missing her best friend but never tried to tell her how much she loved her, she was just confused of her own feelings of how to live a life. But she gained a bit strength and talked to her and told how much alone she feel and how much she is suffering from normal human tendency of jealousy when her only love is happy with others. Her friend laughed but she knew she was serious. They both cried without facing each other but precisely realizing the distance they had made between them but did nothing. She was under bulk of strange feelings about what she has to do with herself exactly but the thought process give her nothing.
She reaches home and smile when she remember those big trees at roadside.. they always give her smile.
