Possibly you are that yellow bird I have been looking for
long, apart from your color, which is imprecise. Though you look beautiful! You have
so many faults that make it easy to overlook your loveliness. But I am a
benevolent soul, so I decide to fall for you, or you can call me foolish too,
it’s your wish, or maybe no, it’s not, it’s mine, I approve you to.
I’ll make sure not to dream about you, because they are strangely accurate and cruel, and I don’t think I want to see you there with the black
dog and dead cat I dream about. I don’t imagine you have any cause to be in my
life even though it’s all bare, but I’ll still keep you at edge, so you
better show me some gratitude because that’s how I exhibit my care for special
people.
Don’t worry, I am not selfish, I know I keep a huge zone for
myself but I have reasons that I won’t tell because to some extent I think it’s
my fault. But believe me, it’s not. Maybe someday I will try to narrate the
reason of being me in the most peculiar way that is unknown to you, but I will
make sure that you get me. You better be attentive that day, because I’ll get
deeply wounded if you won’t, since it is hard for me to tell. Try to understand
me, I don’t expect completely, but don’t make me feel like an alien because I
am going to cheat on my soul that day. Don’t try to act smarter than me, don’t
give me your clever dialogues, don’t pretend that you know me, and don’t try to
analyze my words like it’s a theory and you’re very interested because I will
be aware of your acts as I am foremost almost every single imagination your
mind is going to make. So, stay calm and just listen, and yes, don’t even
pretend that you’re thinking, it disturbs me. I am not rude or anything, I am
just a very much awkward and intelligent and observing.
You will think that I don’t trust you at some instances,
believe me, I don’t. I am that someone who will be very appealing and dedicated
but in the true sense of my nature, I am just following the idea of you being
the one, meanwhile I am aware of all the truths and penalties. I am ready to
get hurt anytime and shed tears, because I have always been geared up, but I
believe that I can be wrong so I let myself in. But that’s where I am really wrong,
because I have always been precise about all the birds, I am Leonardo de Vinci
when it comes to see the true color, but as I said I believe that I can be
wrong.
And in the end of all love and games, when you will fail me,
off course you will what else you have been here for? I will accept my
breakdown and clap for my De Vinci. Maybe Will again look up to the sky,
because if not you, there are many yellow birds that are not exactly yellow, waiting
for me, to start a fresh death battle with my mind.
