She Said!

My love! She screamed to my name…

Come to me… You have always been away even when you were here…

Is something immoral I did? Or you have lost your sanity?

Don’t you love me no more? I can still make you laugh! I am funny you remember?

There is a lot I need to reveal to you… I know you know all but that’s not enough…

It has been a long since we have done ‘nothing’ together

I have these futile lovers that I try to fall for, but you know you have all the keys to my heart

Have lost them?  

Don’t you find me charming no more? I now dress like the way you have always wanted me to

I fill my eyes with kohl… but you don’t see!

I cry with the dying rose everyday, do you remember those days of ecstasy?

I miss your soothing flesh and the smell of your skin…

Do you remember nothing of me?

I dream about you, but I don’t sleep!

I still wait for you at the bench of my local park

Will you come? Will you come to meet me? Sit with me?

Will you? Love me? 

That ride and my world!

That impression on my skin was striking up my psyche without him begin aware of, he geared up his motorbike and took revenge on roads for being conscious. It was a dirty rainy day and neither I was in love but all I was feeling was love of panorama spreaded all around me. So beautiful my mother earth is, the green, the blue, the red, the pink, the laugher, the air, the water, the sand, the wood… everything pierce in you a gap to make home for itself and sulk everything in.

The air and rain eating my face melted me somewhere inside but I don’t know where… but it was somewhere deep I am sure. I was clutching his jacket tightly and all I was thinking of the wrinkles I am going to leave on him. Maybe everything leaves impression on you without you being aware of its existence.

No matter how cheerless I feel in my brain, the pieces of happiness find me from some corner of the world but I have no idea what does my brain has to do to seize in peace without asking. That soul of mine is longer making any effort to help me in feeling anything and all it tries to give me borders of everything but never teaches me where they end. And in the end I am only left with some eternal and bold border lines in my hands without any perpetual angle determined for them. 

Absurd!!

Penalized I was, baleful hunting

Hurt I was, global spurning

Blind I was, self righteous thinking

Alone I was, ridiculous idealizing  

 On heights I was, sacrificed loving

Of beloved I was, not a soul existing

 Happy I was, disregarded mourning

In senses I was, eternal deadening

Psychopath I was, the history emerging

Who I was? Flesh that is breathing?